lindsay&mk

kaitlyn & i went out last night, for the first time in forever, and painted the town red.

i think us together is a lethal weapon, we get into more things together than we could imagine apart... if you ever see us coming, just know that there's trouble a brewin'.

mr. quon

you will never know a man like my father. 

at a time of sorrow, he is the man knowing, maybe not all the right things to say, but all the things to say to make you feel warm inside. he is the toughest and sweetest man i have ever met, i would never have survived with out him. 

we can laugh together, sing together, even cry together. 

he smells like the first breath you inhale when you wake up each morning.

if i am ever lucky enough to find a man like him, i will run, not walk, straight to the alter.

i bet you could guess..

life has been crashing down; like salt water on sand.

in the midst of our mourning, we attempted to celebrate christmas 2 days prior to the funeral.

it was like a scene fresh from a disney family christmas movie: grandpa&grandma, kids&parents, food&presents... there was even home alone2 being played. auntie created home-made doughnuts, everyone pitched in a hand making dinner, drinks were mixed, games were played...

1 part mandarin sparkling soda

2 parts chilled vodka

1/2 tangarine (squeezed w/rinde)

1/2 lime (squeezed w/rinde)

it was everything you could have dreamed of.  yet we still managed moments of un-announced silence for you ruthie.

when i spoke at the rosary tonight, i broke down. but i want you to know, great-grandma, that i thank you for believing in me, even when i was going down a path you didn't approve. you hated my tattoo's and my filthy car, but you loved me no matter what. i love you forever and you have inspired my mind, body, heart, and soul to become a better woman.

quite a day.

today was quite the day, not much activity, but a lot of emotion.

My 95 year old grandmother passed away this morning. It had been known that she was sick, but it was still emotional. After finding out, I hopped into my car and drove to see my dad and our family. Luckily, my gorgeous, vibrant little sister was at the door to greet me. Kids really can brighten up any rain storm. So now, I sit and ponder the thought of life. 

When someone's life is taken, in that very moment, you get a shock into reality. You figure out, all at one second, that life can not be taken for granted. You have to reach out and grab every opportunity to get what you want and get where you wanna go. I can't sit around and wait for my life to happen, I have to grab the bull by the horns and milk those horns for all their worth. I can't get upset or angry at petty things, I have to live and learn. I can't pick and choose who to love, I have to love everyone as if it's their last moment, our last breath together.

anyways, I'm rambling. 

I hope whichever higher power is looking down on me, can vouge for me and say she is in a better place. 

<3ruthie.

From The Beginning.

    Today, Madi and I decided to do a little window shopping from the inside of a local pet shoppe... which is probably not the easiest thing for us. We fell in love with a sweet little dauchsund puppy. She was working up those puppy dog eyes, and somehow when the lady muttered "eight hundred ninety nine," the dog even had to say "fuck that."

     Now, we're just back at home watching none other than the Food Network; Rachel Ray can get annoying, but it's the only channel I watch. I made some RIDICULOUS meatballs last night and then sometime near 4:20, I turned them into sandwiches - Sourdough toast, a layer of melted mozzarella, layer of meatballs, and a layer of goat cheese on the other side. 

I Die Meatballs:

1 lb. Ground beef/turkey

2 Cloves of chopped garlic

1 Egg White

1 Cup Seasoned Bread Crumbs

2 tsp. Season Salt

2 tsp. Pepper

2 tsp. Italian Seasoning

Mix everything together while heating 2 table spoons of olive oil in a pan

at medium heat. Make 10 even balls and place them gently in the oil, browning 

them for about 5 minutes before turning them and cooking for another 4-5 minutes.

Simmer a jar of pasta sauce in a large pot, place the golden meatballs in the sauce

until sauce in thoroughly heated, put on a delicious sandwich or ontop of pasta.

    You'd think that would be enough... but Madi is a brilliant baker, and she was in the mood to make a mess too. We were eating Keebler's Grasshopper cookies when the thought of a chocolate cake with a shattered candy cane frosting hit us like a ton of bricks.

If Rachel Zoe ate, she'd die.